Honey, I’m home….

Well, I guess that since I no longer work at the Roxy, I can come on here again, and not worry about it very much. I started at my new job today (temporary for school funding only). I am not going to tell anyone where it is, because of fear of people coming there and starting rumors about me, and possibly getting me fired. I already lost the best job in the world, and now have to work where I do, go PLEASE people, let me just move on. I am really scared that I am going to never be able to leave what I have done behind. So many people know me from the Roxy it is hard to explain to them what happened. I don’t want that type of reputation. I made a mistake that cost me a lot of stuff. If I could go back and do it again, I wouldn’t. I would work at the theatre and be the best manager I could be, without all the crap. Being jobless for about a month was relaxing, but sucked at the same time. Running out of money sucks the most. Well, hopefully my new job will give me just enough to get by on.

Anyways… I have to work at this new place at 6AM. Damn it! But it will be good. I also get optional medical benifits, which is nice. I already think that this one guy there is totally into me. We will see. I can only hope. 2004 is supposed to be an excellent year for me according to this think I read online. We will see what happens. If any of you have a chance you should check out the funny movies at atomfilms.shockwave.com. They have some funny stuff. Well, I am going to go now, and try to get on with my life. See you all later. BTW: When I know that stuff has settled down, I will come back to the Roxy and see a movie or two, but only when I know stuff is done with. I guess I will just have to go to Pacific until then. Crap.

Why does one room take so damn long?

How can cleaning one bedroom take so damn long? I started cleaning/re-arranging my room on either Wed or Thur, and now it is Mon morning, and it still isn’t done. I really like typing on my new keyboard that I purchased last week. It has a nice feel to it. Beth called me tonight, and I snapped at her. I don’t really know why I snapped at her, but I did. I just finished watching Bowling for Columbine, which I might add, is a really good and thought provoking film. I have not decided yet if I am going to go to Alex’s going away shindig on Tuesday night. I might just do something else for no apparent reason.

Javier and I are still on good terms, which I think is great. He got me the Chicago brochure thingy from Chicago when he went, because when I went, I didn’t have the cash for it. I am very happy that he got that for me. THANKS JAVIER!!! Everyone and their mother is going out to Airport Stadium 12 to interview for the Assistant Manager position over there. I think that all of the people that were sent over there have a good chance of making it out there. I hope that whoever does likes it, and doesn’t look back at the Roxy. Airport is cheaper than us now anyway, and they have newer auditoriums than we do at the Roxy, so it is a better overall situation.

I had a long talk with Mike on Thursday night about stuff. I can now say that I officially am over whatever I was thinking with him. He is straight. (**DAMN IT**) Oh, well. I have “won” enough straight guys to the “gay side” for my lifetime I guess, let someone else do it now. I was joking at work about becoming straight for a week, and all the girls jumped at the chance to hang out with me. So I asked one of the twins (either Rachael or Ranae) to join me at K-Rows, and she didn’t show up. Thanks. They are only in it for fun anyways.

I have to say that I think this is the longest Journal entry that I have ever done. I haven’t posted anything specific in a while, so I guess it is worth it.

I have been watching the first season of Will and Grace, and damn it, that show if funnier than I remember! I think that it is not as funny now, because I am finding myself laughing at the older episodes more than the new ones.

Funny shit (Quotes from Will and Grace):

Sam: The last time I saw you, you were THIS big… but you were on a hill and I was far away.

Jack: For your information, most people who meet me do not know that I am gay.
Will: Jack, blind and deaf people know you’re gay. Dead people know you’re gay.
Jack: Grace, when you first met me, did you know I was gay?
Grace: My dog knew.

Will: ‘I am going to change my clothes because *sniff* yikes! And um, then I am going to sit down on that couch with you and watch Lifetime. That Michelle Lee movie is on.’
Grace: ‘Which one?’
Will: ‘”I’m-not-leaving-town-without-my-daughter-because-I-have-a-brain tumor-but-don’t-hit-me-you-have-a-drinking-problem”.’

Will: ‘Oh you girls are going to have a ball! Braiding each others hair and talking about boys and doing the Cosmo quiz.’
Jack: ‘You mean like how to tell if your best friend’s a bitch? Yeah I already took it, you are.’

Will: ‘Karen tell Grace she should fire you.’
Karen: ‘Grace tell Will to redirect his anger at his mother where it belongs.’

To the new housekeeper when she shouts at her
Grace: ‘At least Mary Poppins did it with a song and a dance – you’re like a spoonful of whoopass!’

I like that last one the most, now off to do something else…..


So Maya, Beth, Laura and I are going to DISNEYLAND on Tuesday night/Wednesday/Thursday morning. It is going to be a lot of fun. Last night really sucked. I was mobbed at the theatre by 300 angry people because the schedule was messed up, and the 5:55 Holes said on the sheet that it got out at 7, but actually got out at 8, and the next show was scheduled at 7:35. I am sure you see the problem. So we had the entire theatre #12 patronage in the upstairs lobby yelling about line formations, and why we had screwed up. Once everyone got into the theatre around 8, everyone simmahed down nah, and it was okay. I sent Laura to Taco Bell, cause I was going to die of starvation, and it took her FOREVAH!! So I ate, and dealt with everything hen it got out, and tis one guy asked me how many people were in the theatre, and I said 300. He was telling me that we didn’t give out anything for them having to wait, and I explained to him that my general manager (Chris) told me to handle the situation on a case by case basis. This guy was like, that is incredably cheap of you. I asked him if he would like a pass, and he told me no, that he would see us in the papers. Okay, FREAK, you can KISS MY BLACK ASS!!!!

So I was stressed out, and wanted to call Jess, but knew that he was busy, and hoped that he would call and want to hang out with me after work, but to no avail. So I went home, stressed, and watched TV and went to sleep alone. I didn’t wake up until 2, when I posted and am now going to watch more TV alone, and then go to work.


Well my vacation from work is almost over. I have to work tomorrow for the first time in like six days. I had a good few days off work, but can’t wait to go back. Sitting at home is just not as fun as it used to be. It would have been nice for Jess not to have been grounded the ENTIRE time, but it was okay. Beth, Zack, Javier, a few people from work and I painted the breakroom on Sat and Sun nights. It came out really well I think. Most people seem to like it, but like with anything, there will be people who are not happy with it.

Kevin and I just got back from the Roxy after seeing Basic and Phone Booth. Basic was really good. I am going to make something to eat, and then play on the computer some more and maybe watch a DVD and go to bed. I can’t wait to work!! Oh, and before I forget: I am going to Jess’ dad’s house on Thursday to eat dinner. I need to be on my best behavior and shake his hand and call him Mr. Camacho. I don’t think that that will be a problem.

What, Five days is not long enough?

Yeah, a lot has happened in the last 5 days. I wasn’t going to go to Vegas, then booked the hotel and air, so I guess I am now. I am flat broke for the first time in a little while. I am going to do something really kewl for everyone soon, and I hope that I can pull it off. Jess went to a party last night and got high. Wow, how exciting, NOT! I am glad that he had fun though, and he is teaching me something very valuable – TRUST. I have a problem with people drinking and doing drugs probably because I don’t really trust the people that do them. I trust Jess enough to not care if he does or doesn’t. I would still prefer if he didn’t, but as long as he doesn’t make a habit of it, then kewl.

Beth has been very “off and on” with people lately. One monute it is I HATE THEM, then it is I LOVE THEM. Pick one. Apparently Joyous is having a going away party at John’s house, but I only heard about it from Beth who was also not invited. Oh, well, I am not going to go. Jess got himself grounded because he lied to his dad about staying over at my house instead of his mom’s house. Bad game. Again, I TRUST Jess enough that he will keep on the path to the light side of the force if you will.

Chris fucked up my schedule this week. I put in a note saying I wanted May 4-8 off to go to Las Vegas, but he gave me April 4-8 off instead. Oh, well. I neded the time off to get a lot of home stuff done. I feel like I don’t have a job for the first time in 3 years. Which brings me to another kewl point – The Roxy will have ben open for three years on April 28th!!! I missed my 3 year anniversary with North American Cinemas last month, March 16th. Here is to three more wonderful years at the Roxy!!!

Note to self : Jess: April 3, 2003 9PM.

I hope that all the drama that has been ensuing between my friends will come to an end soon. Which reminds me – I watched the Children of Dune mini-series on SciFi, and it was great!! Here are two excellent parts that I really liked:

“Your grandfather’s ring – and your father’s.”
“And now the Fremen’s. To remind you od Moe’ade, to remind you that all humans make misteaks, and that all leaders are buy human.”


(In the following, He is her brother.)

“He runs, and runs, and runs. When he has exhasted himself, he returns to me, puts his head in my lap, and asks me to help him find a way to die.”
“Why does he want to die?”
“To save himself … from the sacrafices he must make. Sacrafices for the future of us all.”
“Then there is a place for me in this future.”
“Your blood was spared the day that Lato came back to me.”
“What of our marrage then?”
“As my mother was not wife, you shall never be husband.”
“Politics. But in time, there may be love. Which is more than my brother will ever have. One of us had to accept the agony, he was always the stronger. History is written on the sands of Arracus. A chapter has ended, swept away by the wirlwind. One door has closed, but another has opened, and on the other side, our future.”

If you watched the mini-series, or have a chance to you should. I cried at the last part that I typed there. I have been in a really emotional mood lately. I think that it is good, I am feeling more and more alive, and in turn, more human.


Damn it. I should have been updating my LJ more often to avoid this sort of thing from happening. Although, Beth has ben updating enough for the both of us!!! Have you seen how many posts she has done? I think it was like 5 or 6 yesterday alone!!! So I spent the money that I had left after my bills from this paycheck, which I might add, should have gone torward my Vegas trip, on a new computer. I have been wanting one for a while now, and now I have one! It is cool. I like it a lot. Beth was at my house while I was setting it up yesterday, and she played on my laptop. I am still going to use my laptop for portable computing, but my new computer is good for all the other stuff that I wish I had been doing on my computer, like video editing, and CD Burning, and game playing. So as I sit here eating, typing away and waiting for Jess to call me, so we can see eachother before I go to work tonight, I wonder how am I going to afford Vegas, or Dineyland for that matter.

I also have realized that I need to start going to school again. I want to take a bunch of computer classes again. Beth wants me to take horse back riding with her. It sounds like a lot of fun. I also need to make a trip toi the city again soon. I have to take Jess to the Castro. He has never been there. Ronald is getting all the paperwork from our old car today. THat means it is now OFFICIALLY his. I think on some level that they got a hell of a deal on the car. $1200 for a 1992 FOr Escort 4 Door, with no real problems.

I love my new computer so much. I just want to keep using it. I have to do Cafe inventory tonight, and really don’t want to. I am going to finish eating, and go to work, so until next time (whenever that might be) goodbye…

Who am I?

Well, over the past few days, I have noticed that I am doing what I have a habit of doing with new people: I am starting to pick up all their speech patterns and mannerisms. In this case, it is Jess. I find myself talking like he does, and using mannerisms like this character in the Laramie Project. Every few months when I meet someone new that has a great affect on my life, I pick up a lot of their personality. In a way it is a good thing. In this case it is good, because I am learning not to be afraid to talk to complete strangers, or get in conversations with people. I think that it is a really good thing. I am sorry to hear that all of my friends have been having problems with things lately. Zack, I am sorry that you have that nasty itching, and Joseph, I am sorry that you feel the way you do, although I don’t fully understand why you feel that way. Javier decided to attack my on LJ the other day about telliong Beth “stuff that was said in confidance in the office, not to leave the office”, which is bullshit, because it wasn’t anything that Chris would not have said to Beth’s face. I don’t really care. I know that Javier is just upset, and actually is just looking out for me in his way, so that is kewl.

I saw The Core with Beth last night, and it was actually a pretty decent movie. I thought that it was going to suck major ass, but it didn’t. Yesterday I purchased Roxio Easy CD Creator 6, and man what a good use of my money. It came with a bunch of different programs to do video editing and audio editing, and I really like the ease off which I can use these new programs.

I need to get paid, so I can book my trip to Las Vegas that I am taking in May. Then I need to save to book my trip to Disneyland in July. I can’t wait to go to Las Vegas! It is a really nice day out today, and I may go and ride my bike, but probably won’t. I need to go to Best Buy and get a couple of DVDs that I want. I also need to stop by the theatre and pick up my paycheck. I have to drop off my poster that I made for Jess and my one month anniversary. It is a panorama of Fountaingrove at night. You can see the pic here.

I will leave with these final words: Dike, yeah dike!!!


I have been so busy lately with my life, I have had NO TIME to write on my LJ. I feel like I have neglected an old friend. Well, I am back, and writing to you again. Jess and I are doing well. He stayed over last night, and just went off to school about 15 mins ago. His mom called, and was upset that he stayed over, and he has to punish himself now. I went to 2 of his social gatherings, and was embarassed at both of them. You see, I like the TV show Stargate SG-1, and I had this off the wall idea to build a Stargate in my room. It would rotate, and light up and all. Well, Jess went and told his friends that this is what my intentions were, and they all laughed at me, and I was embarassed.

Also, I went to this Sysco food conference for work, it was in Santa Clara, and I went with Rita, it was a lot of fun, and afterwards we went to IKEA and ate at Harvy’s in the Castro. Beth and I went to Wal-Mart yesterday, and I purchased this fabric to make a curtain for my bedroom door. Queer as Folk was a good episode (sorry Zack). Beth and I are really into renting movies. If Bradly Video pulls up my account, they will know that I am a fuge fag. I reanted Trick, Queer as Folk British Series, Hedwig, Get Real, The Music Man and Philadelphia!! Damn me! Trick was good. Hedwig was interesting, British QasF was like a parallel universe.