So this morning I just woke up. It is 9:22 AM and I didn’t go to sleep until like 2 AM this morning, so why am I up? I had to piss badly. I have been drinking so much juice lately that I can’t stop pissing.
So this update I have determined is going to be long, all encompasing and overall annoying to myself and others. Here are song lyrics that I would like to dedicate to Kohl (reminiscent of our first nights together):
I’m never shy but this is different
I can’t explain the way I’m feeling tonight
I’m losing control of my heart
Tell me what can I do to make you happy
Nothing I ever say seems to come out right
I’m losing control of my heart
And I wish that I could be
Another better part of me
Can’t hear what your thinking
Maybe if I just let go
you’d open up your heart
But I can’t read you
I wish I knew what’s going through your mind
Can’t touch you, your heart defending I get left behind
I can’t reach you
I wish I knew what’s going through your mind
Can’t touch you, your heart protecting I get left behind
I like you so much I’m acting stupid
I can’t play the game I’m all intense and alive
I’m losing control of my heart
I’m not supposed to be this nervous
I should play my hand all cool and calm
I can’t breathe
I’m losing control of my heart
And I wish that you could see
The other better parts of me
Feel this fire I’m feeling
Then you’d see me in control
And baby then you’d know
But I can’t read you
I wish I knew what’s going through your mind
Can’t touch you, your heart defending I get left behind
I can’t reach you
I wish I knew what’s going through your mind
Can’t touch you, your heart protecting I get left behind
I really like that song. I can’t read you sometimes Kohl.
Antoher song (I changed the lyrics to be gay):
Boyfriend
You make my head start spinning around
And all I can ever hear is the sound
Of your heart beating in my ears
Boyfriend
This boy has found another reason to sing
You’re reminding me of everything
That I hold dear in my heart
And I’m feeling elevated
Lifted to my highest dream
My whole world’s revolving in circles round your heart
You gotta be the one for me or else life makes no sense
So wrap your arms around me
Kiss me till I’m dead
Boyfriend
A guy like you would take an army to find
How glad I am that you said you would be mine
standing there in the cold, dark night
Boyfriend
Let me take you to the fields of the sun
How much it means to me that you are the one
That I hold here in my arms
Just Found this one:
Don’t want you looking at the stars tonight
I just want your eyes on me
I wanna be the only thing on your mind
I’ll be all you need
Don’t want you talking on the phone, don’t go out
I just want you here with me
Don’t want you spending time alone
Stay around, I’ll be all you need
Can’t you see you hold my heart in your hands
You own me, you own me
I need you to survive
I know I’m alive when you hold me
Hold me
Don’t want to share you with the stars in the night
I only want you to only want me
Now, then and forever
I’m even jealous of the sun in your eyes
I want you looking at me, only me
I want all your attention
Forgive me if I seem to need you too much
You illuminate my soul
Don’t think that I could breathe without your touch
You could never know
When I’m with you I’ve got nothing to hide
You know me, you know me
I need you to survive
I know I’m alive when you hold me
Hold me
Don’t want to share you with the stars in the night
I only want you to only want me
Now, then and forever
I’m even jealous of the sun in your eyes
I want you looking at me, only me
I want all your attention
I really like that one…
Now, a regularly scheduled update:
Again I state on here that next week I am being interviewed for Line Manager at work. Right. I will be getting $75 on my next paycheck for being cashier of the month for January, and if I turn in my merit badges I can get another $80 after taxes on my check. I am not sure what we are going to do for Laura’s birthday yet, and I would talk more about it on here, but she might be standing behind Beth when she is reading this, so no.
Recently I am very happy with photography. It puts me at peace and I think that I am fairly good at it. I wan’t Kevin’s camera soooo bad.
I need to start prepping for Disneyland on May 4-10. I need to start saving money and get a damn hotel room. I need $61 from Beth, Laura and Kohl and then I can book it. We also need to get our annual passports which are $329 each. I have to find out if Kohl is going to want one of those. What makes all this hard is that I have to pay $200 in taxes this year, and like $100 for my cell phone bill and still pay my car payments, pay off some creditors and save spending money. DAMN IT.
It will all work out, it always does. I had so much that I wanted to post about on here, but I can’t think of it, so I will post it later, when I remember. For now I will talk to y’all later.