Jess – My new Boyfriend
Zack – My new Dragqueen
Zack again
Monthly Archive for February, 2003
Well Jess is officially my boyfriend! I am sooooo happy! I haven’t felt this way for a long time. I really connect with Jess on a deep level, it is very strange. Yesterday was Kevin and my brother Brian’s birthday, and I had totally forgotten. Jess called me when I was getting ready for work to talk to me and then decided that we should be going out. So we are now!! I was soooo happy! I was prancing around all night at work, and getting along with everyone! It was so kewl. I had a few conversations with Danniel and I felt really good to be chatting with him again and not having any ill feelings torward him. I was really jazzed about that.
After work Beth, Zack and I went to K-Rows. On the way I called Jess and made him go with us. We hung out from 1 to 2:30, then I took him home. Jess is going to stay over on Saturday night, then on Sunday we are going to breakfast in Occidental. I can’t wait! Jess has put me in this new plane of existance and wellbeing. I am very excited about the direction I am headed in now with everything. On that note: Joseph seems to be spazzing out about the Jess issue. I was talking to Zack about it, and I said boyfriend and Joseph went running off with his panties in a furl. He almost killed himself trying to get his bike out the breakroom door.
Anywhayz – I am going to go and run some errands, and then go to work Friday night (YAY). Until later LJ….
Ok, well since my last entry, a lot has happened. So I was at home all day, and then I called Jess and talked for like 2 secs. Then I went to work, where I was frustrated all night about my feelings for Jess. I talked to Beth a lot about them, and was convinced that I should take things slow, and let things develop. Then I was building up a movie and listening to Margaret Cho and she taught me an important lesson: Love yourself without hesitation, and love each other without restraint. So then I was not so sure about how to handle things again. So I went and talked to Maya about it. We had a very long talk about a lot of things and came to the conclusion that both ways are right. Be in touch with what you are feeling, and let them know what that is, but expect to have to make allowances for things to develop as well.
So Joyous and Zack show up at work, and want a ride home, and I was like shit!!! I just want to take Beth home, and go to bed. Well, they go and see a movie, and Maya is going home, and Jess comes to get her, and I was really excited because I really wanted to see him badly all day, and was afraid that I would not see him. So he left, and Maya talked to him about what we talked about, and I took Beth home and got a text message from him, and I called him back and ended up going to his house and staying there until 5:30, talking cuddling, and just being together. It was the happiest I have been in a long time. So I woke up and went to work today, and it was really slow, and then Jess called and wanted to hang for like an hour before his practice, and I was really excited. I rushed home to meet him at my house and he only stayed a few mins, but I got to show him Snatch!!! He is going to call me later tonight and we might do something. I can’t wait!! I am SOOOO HAPPY!!! I don’t really understand why, but I can’t ask questions, I just know that it is what I feel, and why hold back?
I have to shower, pick Beth up and go shopping with my mom now, then show Beth my Queer as Folk Season 2 DVD stuff, and then hopefully do something with Jess. Later Journal.
I have had a wonderful week since I made my last post! I finished up my double shift, and it went really well. I went home and went to sleep. I woke up on Saturday and washed my car and ended up getting a combo allergy and migraine headache. Ouch! Jess called me, and said that he had some stuff to do and he would call me back later, and I was kewl with that. I went home and took an allergy pill and aspirin. I ended up making myself throw up to get rid of my pain, and then I took another of each pill. I went to G&G to get the boutinere (sp?) for Jess. It looked good, but then I was getting to feel like shit again. Damn it! So I went home and walked around trying not to throw up again. I was sitting in my bathroom and was about to fall asleep on the sink when my mom came in and touched my forehead, and that was like insta gag, and I puked again. So after that I went into the living room, and layed on the floor, and Jess called, and wanted me to come over, and I told him to give me like 1/2 an hour, cause I needed to recoup and that I would explain later. I felt a lot better and went to Jess’ house and we talked a lot, and then I went home and got dressed and went back to pick Jess up to go and eat dinner. He looked REALLY GOOD in his pink shirt that I was really worried about. We went to the Olive Garden and we ate. It was a great experience just to be there with him. He is such a GREAT GUY!! So we went to Kevin’s to get the boutineer (sp?) and Kevin met him. Then we went to Safeway to get my flower thingy, and then off to the dance. We were early so we went to this park on Pacific, and then went to his friends house who was really nice, and then finally off to the dance.
When we got to the dance we weren’t sure that I would be able to get in or not because I was too old, and didn’t have ID. So we got in and took our photo, which was funny because the guy was trying to pose us looking completely like we were going to duel, then Jess said that we were a couple and got a better pose for the pic. We danced a lot and I met a lot of his really kewl friends. There was a scary giraffe in the food area that made everyone a little nervous. After the great dancing and closeness that we shared, we went to his friends house to hang out. His friend Jessica is really funny, and reminds me of Molly from work a lot. She just got a job at the theatre too.
Jess and I cuddled for a while and then I had to go, so he walked me to my car and I gave him a ride back to his friends apt. He gave me a funny look, and got out, and I asked what the look was about and that I was probably thinking the same thing, so he walked around to my window and kissed me really well, and then I left.
I got home and started to talk to Kevin and Jess calls and wants me to come back and make out with him again. So I went back over and we cuddled a lot, and then both of us fell asleep. I woke up at like 5 AM and had to go home.
I didn’t get up until like 2, and I picked everyone up and we went to Best Buy and Old Navy to get a gift for Laura and went to her B-Day party. The party was fun, and then we went back to my house and started on cleaning my house like we had planned to do. It was a ton of work, but the house looks SOOOOO much better now, and I am really happy about it. Joyous ended up going to see her boyfriend at like 2 AM, but Beth and Zack stayed to finish cleaning. On Monday we got the steam cleaner, and worked our asses off doing the carpets. Jess called and wanted to come over, so he did, and we all talked for a while. Jess, Beth and I went to K-Rows and ate, and then I dropped off Beth and Jess and I went back to my house, and we had a really pleasant 2 hour conversation about all types of stuff and cuddled. I have never like having just random conversation with someone so much! I love it. Jess is such a great person, and I think that he is perfect. My mom seems to like him too. This is great. The world is GREAT for me right now. I am sooooo happy!!!