Well, I have to make up for not posting about the other night, and make a new post from last night.

Sunday
We had planned a get together. When I say we, I mean Joyous, Laura and Ben. I meet Joyous and Laura at the theatre and we go to Joyous’ house so she can change, and that is where we are going to meet Ben. He is going to meet us at like 7:30, and it is only like 6:45, so we have time to kill. We decide to go to the haunted pond by Joyous’ house, and she tells us stories about it. We get done there, and still have time to kill, so we go into the old cemetary and start walking around. We don’t go too far, because we promised Ben that we wouldn’t do anything without him. So we go back to the “Train Station” (hat is what it is called) and meet Ben. First thing out of his mouth: “We need to get alcohol.” We ignore that comment, and go to the cemetary. It was a lot of fun, we spent like an hour walking around in the dark looking at all the kewl headstones, and listening to Joyous tell us all the stories about the different graves and stuff.

Afterwards, we went back to where Ben was parked to decide what to do next, because our original plan of going to the city was not going to work out because Ben had to meet up with his friend at 10, and it was like 8:15 now. So we decide that we need to go and get booze to drink, and so we go to Montgomery Village and get some Vodka, Wine Coolers and Red Bull. All of us head on up to Fountaingrove to the overlook that I used to visit all the time. Ben drank a lot, and Joyous had a little to drink and Laura and I drank Red Bull. We talked about a lot of stuff, but mostly the Theatre. Ben told me how Courtney steals from work, and I thought that was interesting. Then the discussion about gay relationships came up, and of course, I had to talk about all of mine, and everyone was curious about what I wanted in a relationship, and I told them. Ben seemed interested, or just really drunk. He tried to move closer to me, but knocked over the Vodka, and we decided to leave. We went back to the car, and went to K-Rows. Crystal was working, and she said hi, but had a lot of work to do. Good thing they sat us in the back, for what was about to happen would have been MUCH worse it it would have been in the front section.

We ordered, and Ben was rubbing my leg under the table, which was okay, actually, it was quite nice. Then he was doing something under the table, and everyone was wondering what he was doing. He grabbed my hand, and pulled it under the table into his lap, where he had pulled out his dick! Well, that was interesting, so we all switched seats so me and Ben were sitting by the window, and not on the isle where everyone could easily see what was going on under the table. Laura and Joyous went to the restroom and I was talking to Ben, and he leaned torwards me like he wanted me to kiss him, so I did. When I leaned back, I realized that everyone sitting around us had seen us kiss! Oh, well. I liked it. So we ate, and Ben poured rice all over, and then passed out. We hung out in K-Rows for a while until the Sheriffs showed up to eat by us, and we decided that it was time to leave. We got ben up from being passed out, and left. I sent Laura back with the tip, and apparently she got questioed by the Sheriff about her age, and stuff. She was kewl about it, and we left. I didn’t want to go home yet, so we started to drive up the freeway to Healdsburg, when Ben looked like he wanted to get out, so I pulled over, and he got out. He went climbing all around in the bushes, and we didn’t know what was going on. He wanted to be left alone, so we did. After about 10 minutes of waiting, we finally got him back into the car, and I decided that we needed to go somewhere stable. So I took him to Kevin’s house. Ben passed out on Laura’s lap on Kevin’s couch. We sat in the living room for a while, and I decided that maybe he should lay down in the bedroom, so he would be more comfortable. So I set up the pull out bed, and we walked him in there, and he went to sleep. I waited around a while with everyone, then took Laura and Joyous to Laura’s car in the parking garage, and came back to Kevin’s to keep an eye out for Ben waking up. I put in Rocky Horror Picture Show, and watched all of it. It ended up being 4:45 AM, and I dozed off finally. Approxomately 15 minutes later, I was awakened by Ben shaking me saying, “Tage, man I need to go home!!!” So I got up, and put my shoes on, and took Ben to hos car. Ben didn’t remember anything after getting to Fountaingrove. I let him in on what happened. He was really embarrassed, and didn’t want anyone else to know about it ever. I promised I wouldn’t tell anyone, and assured him that it was all okay. I told him to call me the next day, and I had to work.

Then….

He didn’t call me all day, so I called him and left a voice mail on his cell phone. No return call. Oh, well. So I was ready to leave the theatre at 5, cause I was REALLY tired, and wanted to sleep. I go to leave through the lobby and Ben is there like 1/2 hour early. Apparently, he wanted to talk to me. He thanked me for taking care of him, and he was really appreciative, and he was sorry for embarrassing me, and I told him not to worry about it, because I enjoyed talking care of him, and it was kind of fun. So I told him that he needed to tell me where he wanted to go with things. I see three (four) ways that we can go: (1) We can just be friends, (2) We can be “fuck buddies” or (3) We can “go out” (or (4) we can not even be friends, and end whatever we have now). I hope that he chooses one soon, I act completely different in all these different situations. I NEED to know what he wants to do. He was supposed to call me last night after work, but didn’t, so maybe he will call today. If not, I will call him. Okay, enough for this post!