Archive for October, 2002

Danniel,
What’s up? I just wanted to talk to you a little bit, but thought that writing might be a little better. I know that lately I have not been a person that you want to be around for whatever reason. I realize that it is probably because I don’t make it easy, and you shouldn’t have to have a difficult time doing, well anything with me. I know that I make things hard a lot of the time, and I really don’t mean to. I really like having you around, and spending a lot of time with you.

I went out last night and went to the city with, get this, Beth (of course), her friend Erin, and ….. Joseph Greenlee! While we were out, I put in the Moulin Rouge CD and realized how much I still loved you. I mean, I knew I loved you, but I guess I had forgotten how much. It gave me memories of how things used to be. I really would like things to be like that, but somewhere I know that it will never be that way again. I had heard, or read somewhere that when you are with someone for as long as we have been together, you hit this hard time (which is what I think we are in), and then things get better, and are even BETTER than they were before.

So, I would just like to let you know that I am here for you, as I hope that you are there for me. I may have seemed really distant lately, but I want nothing more than to close this distance. I hope that you want the same thing. People keep talking to me and saying how great we are together (how little they know about anything in our relationship right now), and I think we compliment each other well. What do you think?

I am sorry that I have not really been there for you when you were promoted to manager, but I am really excited for you. I wanted to be there, but since you became manger, I felt like you have been trying to put this distance between us. I don’t like that. What has changed? What can I do to help make things better? I am sure that I am not the only one who is unhappy with the situation.

Basically, all that I am trying to say in this long, drawn out letter is that I love you, possibly now more than ever. I know that I talk about my feelings a lot, and you prefer to keep things to yourself, and I am sure you get tired of hearing about my crap, but I want to thank you for that. I would like to try and make amends with you. I love you. Plain and simple. We may not agree about a lot of things, but that does not mean that we still can’t be happy with each other. I hope that you want the same thing.

“You’re free to leave me, but please don’t deceive me, and PLEASE, believe me when I say, I LOVE YOU.”

Can we please bring this distance and dip in our relationship to a close, and get back to doing what we should be doing at our age, and being in a relationship, and have some FUN? I would appreciate if you would respond to this in any way that you feel necessary.

I love you,

Tage